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my mind is never quiet. it jumps from destination to destination. constantly pulling up pictures and emotions. like a never ending news-reel.

the only ‘thing’ that will slow it down and dampen the white noise is the presence of others. or a book or a tv-show. even then it is never quiet.

pray and meditate, they told me. yet even then í have to rattle off a litany of words. silent mumbles. just to keep focused. just to keep the white noise from jumping around without meaning inside my mind.

i wish i could have just ten minutes of silence. real silence.